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The Joys of working wih Children?

The little germ infested monsters got me super sick. I'm dieing here and this experience has only incresed my belif that is you can stay home with your kids then do so. All these daycares I work at are all fancy shmancy, accredited this, awards in that and 50% absent kids all the time because they are always getting sick. Sure I understand if your a dingle mom & you have to work but still, your kids going to be out with a cold and you;ll be missing all that work! The best behaved and the most healthy kids I ever had were thoe ones who were in a house, a lady ran a daycare out of her home she had maybe a dozen kids, my mom used to do that too, if my kids need to be watched because I have to work, they are going to her...Hire a babysitter or a nanny or a college student or if you can stay home woth your children, keep them healthy! That way all of us teachers can stay healthy too, I didn;t take this job thinking gee I won;t have to wrk half the time because I'll be sick at home, I took it because I love kids and I love teaching them, I wish I could keep them healthy too.
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I have a beef with Texans

So what the hell is it about Texans that when someone throws a party no one shows up? Even after saying yes they don't show - why???? Because there's a mav's game on...PLEASE people your social life is more importnat (or should be) than a Mav's game!!!! Big game - we can turn it on here you know... besides we have the alcohal and the friends to make it one hell of a game!

I LOVE throwing parties and I do a good job...I'm a good hostess and in CA I had several succsessful parties and the people who said they would be there showed up or at least had the common curtesy to call and say they would not be able to make it. I always provide at my parties, the space, tons of food, alcohal, fun conversation, entertainment, friendly atmosphere new people to meet. I had a hosewarming party that I invited over 30 people to attend, 12 said yes and 5 showed up, this would have never happend in CA. What is with you Texans???
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ok so...

Erin got me back over here and tonight I feel the need to write. I'm in a wierd place but I've been here forever and I think part of it is being a Gemini, like I will never be satisfied really excited and anxious to take the next step and then I do and I'm happy for like a month and then I get all excited and anxious again for the next one. It;s weird like being a teen you can't wait to be 16 and drive, 18 and legal, 21 and drinking...25 first great job or promotion but there is always something better than where you are and constantly trying to reach to the next big thing...will I ever be satisfied?

So I have an amazing husband who is more than I ever imagined, a fabulous house which is totally more than I imagined a first house would be, found a job that I love and I have my dance which I adore! We just adopted puppies and get them in a few weeks (they are still to young) and with all this great stuff and awsome accomplishments I have still a huge and growing list of goals and dreams. Whats up with that I don;t want to feel like I'm constantly reaching anymore.

I guess my real "goal" is contentment.
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reading the news really makes me mad sometimes

“While the U.S. Supreme Court will be "very slow" to recognize same-sex marriages, Moss predicted moderate state courts such as New York's will begin "acknowledging that marriage is a fundamental right" and that excluding same-sex couples violates their constitutional guarantees.”

 

By JOEL STASHENKO, Associated Press Writer

 

To me, this is where things get fuzzy.  First of all let me say I am a happily Married straight woman but I have no objection whatsoever to Gay Marriage.  I do consider myself Christian as well but I do not interpret the Bible literally.  Regardless of that it’s the politics of the gay marriage issue that confuse me is marriage a “right?”  Is marriage protected by the constitution?  To me a marriage is a commitment made by two people who “love” legally recognized as a couple who will live together and make a life together and therefore they get to do things like file taxes together and get two for one discounts and other things.  More then politics and religion I believe the benefit of marriage is for thru two who get married.  Living together, having families, the dog, the white picket fence and sharing all that with someone you love it’s a truly wonderful thing and I believe that if I or anyone else wants to share their life with someone of the same sex no one religious or political should tell them otherwise.  The government and out churches shouldn’t be allowed to dictate who we can and cannot love.

 

To me, the bigger problem here is that the government is completely violating the separation of church and state and that is the issue that needs to be brought to the courts.
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Concern

As I was getting insanely depressed about the fact that I won’t get social security enough for groceries when I’m older and that every county in this state is on the list of most expensive places to live in the nation and the fact that I’ll be insanely poor and unprotected and earning no retirement if later I decide to be a stay at home mom – I was getting so frustrated and upset. Mad at the government and the idiot I voted for.

You know it’s really simple, if you ask someone to borrow money because you need groceries and then you spend that money on a ski trip then you’ve done wrong and you’re a liar, in general if you ask a person for money for groceries you’re going to spend it on groceries – kids no this. But what is out government teaching us? The State government taught us that if you earn money and pay taxes for roads they’ll spend it on something else and then try to think of a new tax so you have to pay again to fix the potholes. And the federal government teaches us that if you get a job and pay huge percentages of income tax into social security if will come back to you when you retire, instead we pay and they spend, not on the things we voted for, they spend n whatever they dam well please. They take my money and do whatever they want with it. I’m seriously considering tax evasion – you would all pay for my trials and prison time, not me. And if I got away with it that money would be put to much better use, smarter use, my kids education and my own retirement – donations to organizations that need it, not my President, he’s got plenty enough money for his kids education and his retirement and his houses, jets…etc.

I think about the depression out county is headed for and lots of people lived through it once before. I don’t fear for my life I fear for my happiness and my supposed fair chance for prosperity. I worry about being able to provide for my kids, food education, life experiences like going on vacations, Disneyland, going to live theater – cultural things like museums and art shows…the finer things in life.

A so I turn on the radio Fabulous 690 am and my soul feels a little at ease. Soothing, comforting, happy music and some written during the last depression, during a previously devious government. It so hurts my heart – I suppose I can play the lottery, gamble a little – pray a lot, divorce my dear sweet wonderful husband and marry a rich man…the risk of the options do NOT outweigh the benefit.

But I listen to this old wonderful music and it soothes me – at least a little and I’m happier and I still worry I think about surfing for how to finance a stay at home mom and such and making sac lunches so we can put and extra $20 a month into our IRA I’ll have to open soon. I think about investigation private schools and costs and working part time while they are in school like my mom did while we were growing up. So many questions so undeterminable life and so little money, no thanks to this great Nation.
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happenings

When I went out to get lunch today it started raining. Even though getting wet in the rain is not on my list 100 things I love, it took me immediately to a happy place. I was walking back to work with my large egg drop soup in the "Golden Chopsticks" paper bag but somehow I was in Seattle. I was 22, alone, independent and happy and I wanted to write. That was my dream after college and even though I adore living in LA and I adore summertime and sunshine and palm trees...that feeling - my dream that moment really made me wonder have I made all the right choices? Would I be happier (because I am happy) If I did live in Seattle in a little apartment in rainy weather looking out my window and attempting to be a successful writer? Why is that non-glamorous and very unstable life so appealing to me? Especially now when my near future holds children and a house...a white picket fence and if I'm really lucky I'll be a stay at home mom. Then I thought maybe it has nothing to do with when or where, maybe it's the writing, the entire reason I changed from a nursing major to a communications major in college; I realized then I just wouldn't be happy unless I was writing - when did I lose sight of that?

I feel like I've become another person a person I don't know very well - is this life of the 20-somethings? I am a Gemini and I have two very clear sides to my personality, just as my astrological sign would suggest, sometimes though, satisfying both of them can be quite difficult.

I just found out yester day that two aunts, two of my Grandmothers 8 sisters have breast cancer, and I'm wondering how concerned I should be I scheduled a mammogram, I've never had one before.
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Happy 2005!

NYE at Disneyland was soo much fun! I had an absolute blast! I have the best friends ever!

Since then I haven’t been so well. I go a knock down drag out cold that really did a number on me; I even went to the doctor, slept all weekend. I’m feeling better – a bit now but man it was horrible!

I’m planning my next party for St. Patrick’s Day. I really love entertaining and our apartment isn’t big by any means but it cleans up nice and sure looks good with all my friends in it. I’m already planning and I’m trying to decide if I want to invite grown-ups. My parents have heard about the wonderful success and fun of my past parties and I think they wonder why I haven’t invited them, It’s because I don’t want them to see me drunk I get really silly and “entertaining” as I’ve been told but I don’t want to take that risk in front of grown ups but if I don’t drink, well I don’t want to have to not drink I get a little nervous with every party so I need a drink to start to loosen up and become the “great host” I’ve been told I am. And my Co-workers, the grown up ones, the ones who determine my paycheck. I’ll have to have a grown up party eventually – maybe for my b-day or something, I’m not sure I’m ready for it yet, that one will take very careful planning. Maybe I will make it this one, I just have to figure out how…

I thought of the perfect job for me – Party planner!
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DISNEYLAND!

I'm so excited I'm going to Disneyland tomorrow. It hasn't been too to long, but I have 3 years I lived in the bay are to make up for, especially since the pass costs so much now I get to get every penny's worth out of it. I'm going with a sizeable group of people and I'd be just as happy if I wasn't. I really only want to hang out with one of the couples who are coming, you know who you are.

This is supposed to be a short day, my husband is home. why am I still here...at work?

Can it plese be tomorrow yet? I want to be there!
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Trust

Oh I am so happy - today I got my very first accounting assignment at work! I got to to the bank deposit. Ok so I knoe that that is nothing and 18 year old admins do it all the time but this is so good because they are trusting me with ther money - my boss didn't even ask to check my work! Now I knw that we're on the right rack at this job.
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Death Sentence

The verdict in, Scott Peterson will be executed. I was routing for execution but now that it's actually going to happen I feel - heavy hearted - wow it's so sad, I mean it's deserved but sad, you know what I mean? I think it is horrible what he did and no one disagrees with me but another life lost... all three Peterson's gone it's so awful what real people, humans like you and me are capable of, so much evil! I am so lucky to have the friends I have, to have married the man I married - I’m not sure religious but really I should thank God for all I have in prayer tonight - we are so lucky that we are not Laci or Scott or related and going through all the heartache that this man has caused too many people. We are unbelievably lucky.
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